Life has beaten the hell out of me
Guest post: written by a single mom who never gives up
There were times when I said to my self, “Holy crap! This life has beaten the hell out of me!” I had been through my share of tragic events, events that were owed a good cry or two, or maybe even three.
Trials and Tribulations
My trials and tribulations are many and no different that others in this world: loss of loved ones due to cancer, loss of loved one due to a failed marriage and being a professional and single parent. For reasons never shared, the challenges of being a single mom doing everything in her power to maintain a sound life for her child, while at the same time maintaining her own sanity. There were many times that I had felt down, wanted to cry, deserved to cry, but didn’t cry; I kept going, holding strong and staying the course.
I felt bad for how life turned out; it has not been easy. But I stopped just short of feeling sorry for myself, stopped short of feeling that the world had done me wrong. I kept strong for my child. I told myself that I am in control of my destiny.
Then one day I stopped feeling bad altogether, examined myself and said “stay strong girl, don’t give up!” I then drew strength from the most unsuspecting sources, my son and his friend. Both had suffered tragedies, one a father who abandoned him and the other boy lost his mom suddenly due to a tragic and unexpected death. These two young lads, both are suffering yet they remain strong and continue to go through life taking life moment by each moment!
Life happens and is often totally within our control. The mindset of these two has led me to become even stronger, to learn to accept and continue on focusing on what I can control, the person who I want to be! For simply stated, I am in control.
May you find peace and solitude within; guide your soul to greatness. Stay strong and positive.
Peace & love.